But when?
When can i start pretending that I'm happy?
When can i start living my life the way i want ?
When can i start being myself again?
When can i start believing in optimism?
I seem to have been moving on but haven't left the past entirely.
Let me say what i want to say even if you don't know what I'm talking about. Let me say it hurts to consciously lose yourself in the mundane routines of life when your life could have been so much than mundane. It hurts to live each day thinking of a tomorrow that's no better.
You may not know what it feels like to look at the world and think where you fit in it because the space you occupied no longer exists. I will tell u it feels lonely. It feels lonely to have nobody with you to dream the things that u have dream't of , or to tell you they will come true.There is no solace in knowing it could have been different if somebody wanted it to be.
I can wipe others tears but i can no longer cry. How do you cry for what you can never have? The heart, it weeps. But the eyes can only stare in empty silence. And there isn't even a future to look at.
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